By Patrece D.
This is what I would say if I were to be interviewed about the change and “improvements” of my community fifty years from now.
“Growing up I was convinced that it takes a life to learn how to live and that you never stop learning. Then I started to think, ‘Well, what is there to learn if the world never changes?’ That wasn’t true because I learned a lot about the world, probably more than myself. At sixteen I learned it early. Even after understanding, things were complicated. The opportunities were sparse. I was lost and still till this day I don’t think I truly found myself but I found who I want to be and everyday is based on just that: who and what I want to be. I had dreams and most importantly I had this desire to be something more than human. Maybe I’d have a better chance at changing the world that way. I didn’t want to be an actress; I did that everyday, pretending to be something else more exciting and extraordinary. I didn’t want to be a doctor because I didn’t have time helping others get better when my own shit wasn’t together. I wanted to be human and live while still feeling alive because I heard that was the best feeling. You can be alive and not feel alive. I wanted to live harmoniously in the world. I didn’t want to fall in love hopelessly because I did that all the time. In and out. Most of all I wanted to be apart of a community that wasn’t falling apart. Reaching a point of unity without the input of a new plaza across the street, seemed impossible. I’m now in my sixes and even in this generation it seems impossible.”